Hostage Taking Drama.

    There has been a tragedy and according to my grandfather who watched the news there were 6 people who died (i don't know if Rolando Mendoza, the hostage taker is included on this). It's a very sad event and i know we are shocked and disappointed on how things turned out. 


     It was then I realized that there are things out of our control and despite the disappointment and the hostile feelings of some, we know that there's a God who'll judge each action we do, he's a JUST God. It's not through our cursing or through our feeling of anger that will get him back from the dead or bring back the hands of time. As far as i know he's already dead or if he's not then nevertheless the crime has been committed.




   For the chinese, for the family of those chinese who were killed, I apologize for what our fellowmen has done, I can't deny he's a Filipino, we cannot and I don't have the right to disown him, Duibuqi. 


  For my fellow Filipino citizens let's stop dwelling on the past, it's done and as what i have said earlier, God will avenge. 

Romans 12:19 (New International Version)

Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"says the Lord.

Isaiah 43:18 (New International Version)

  "Forget the former things;
       do not dwell on the past.

Test

We are continually tested. Areas in our life are being rated. 


I doesn't sound that good. I mean, who would want pop quizzes right or quizzes itself ? but then i realized, it evaluates us. Sometimes, I (or we maybe) feel that it's OK to be OK or be contented when we've already surpassed an obstacle. But, i realized, it  shouldn't be about finding a place you are to be comfortable with, it's about finding a place where you'll continually grow. 


   Notice how your obstacles change. Notice how you physically grow. 


   When I think about my problems when i was a child, i thought about school (school works like assignments, seatworks, quizzes..) but as a grown up and a college graduate i have to find a job. As you see there's a big difference in what i think about before and now. 


    When i looked at my pictures before, all i could see is a child. Now, i can't really say I'm still that. As we grow and we mature we find and lose people or things along the way. I don't fully understand why till i found this :

Hebrews 12:1

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

 We lose (things and )people cause it's what God has planned. If they come back,good, but we have to admit that what we had before's different than what we're going to have now. God uses people to help us grow, God uses people to test us. But we'll see later on how good, pleasing and perfect His will is.

Romans 12:2

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

    

Chances. Changes.

I have to wake up early tomorrow but i can't just say no to posting this. It seems like God is telling me to walk out of my comfort zone and meet new people- meet new group of friends. It feels as though God's giving me chances/opportunities to walk out from where i love to be in a one by one format. It feels unreal and weird since i have to start back to 0 . I know we, Christians need to grow and it means we also need to explore more of what's around us. It just means constant adjustment to changes and with that we all know change is constant.

Insecurity.

     I've been reading notes and blogs and I realized why not create a fresh blog site whereas people could know my thoughts about things and write what I feel. I'm feeling a bit biased about having 2 blog sites. It feels like i have two persona(s). However, I've decided to let this site be open to everyone. To let this be a site where people could see (read) through me.

   We all felt the trouble of INSECURITY.

 When I was in High School not many of my batch mates play guitar, let's say approximately 1/4 of our batch knows how to play the guitar and I (before) considered it a special talent. I find the 1/4 of our batch very cool  and from then on I realized I want to learn how to play the guitar. I had very hard fingers back then, that's why it was so hard for me to get what they were teaching me. Now, for the record, I know how to play the guitar, my hard fingers soften cause I had love and determination to accompany me

    Being a high school student (before), I saw predominance when it comes to feeling we want to belong to the in crowd or at least categorize ourselves as those with higher values. I guess that's why High School musical was created, to depict what it feels like to be in High School. There were cute puppy loves and endless crushes I hear and experienced but back then just like what some elders predicted they didn't go well for me. I had crushes.

   I had my fair share of insecurities as well, an example is I found out my crush likes my friend. It was really heartbreaking, 2 thoughts just keep on repeating inside my head, first is, "Why her? Why of all the people her?" second is, "I can't compete with her, she will win". Because of these 2, I felt how I'm not good enough for my crush and how little I am towards my friend. Well, it's funny cause here are the Thought busters people must ponder on (if you feel or felt this way):

• "Why her? Why of all the people her?"   - Why not her? I mean, let's know for a fact that he likes her and you can't just tell him, "Pick me, Pick me" A reminder for all the girls, we are all precious, we are unique and God loves us so much he has already planned our love story. Plus, I have to add expecting more from your guy friend doesn't mean they'll feel the same way. There may be signs he likes you but it's best if he tells it to you directly. Also, it's just now i realized I'd want to meet a guy who'd help me in my walk with Christ. Someone who'd study the Bible with me and someone who'd love God above all else. 
• "I can't compete with her, she will win" -If we think it's all about competing to win and apparently you've just lost, does your friendship with your friend and him would end there? if she's all he wants then respect him. Besides when you get blinded by what he sees, you see what you don't have, you've lost sight to what you have. I know it sounds redundant but if we count our blessings, we'd find contentment. We wouldn't have to lose what we already have.

     God created us differently but in HIS own image and likeness, we differ in so many ways but as a Christian and as a human being, we all have our own beauty it doesn't matter if someone has this or that what matters is what you have that God gave you. He's already planned our love story and we're all here for God. I know it defies "I was born for you" (to someone here on earth) but it's true. We're all here for God, to be the stewards of His creations.